I've honestly been feeling like it has bee harder and harder to wake up each morning. To wake up and feel productive. Most times I just want to vegetate and not do anything. All I've felt lately are the lows. I don't think there have been highs in my life as of late. At least it doesn't feel like there have been a lot of them. I know I don't pray as much as I use to. I know I have not been as strong of a Christian as I use to be. I know that. And God, I know it's not good. I know I have to find my place in the world again. I need to find my faith again. I need for it to be be stronger and more resistant to the hard times in my life. I need direction. And with my faith I think I can get there. I think I want to go to church alone. I feel like I have to. I need to find a way to worship in a place I feel comfortable in.
Amen.
